The search for the perfect man (Part Three)
Mr F-M
When you phoned me just before Christmas, wanting me to come down to Heathrow, I said that I needed something more from you before I could do anything crazy like that again. So you drove up to me. Although it was good to see you, that wasn't really what I meant. I meant I needed to see a change to the pattern of things to help me feel it would be worthwhile opening myself up all over again. If you'd have kept to your word about getting a laptop & communicating more regularly to see "how things go", it would have been a step forward. But it's all just the same thing routine, isn't it? I mean, last week you sent that email suggesting you ring to arrange to come round and I've still heard nothing again.
So we're now in March and we've passed my deadline of seeing how things go. I know you mean everything you say at the time (well I think you do, anyway), but what is the point in saying it if nothing transpires? As the man says " What we think, or what we know, or what we believe is, in the end, of little consequence. The only consequence is what we do." You're clearly comfortable enough in your life not to want to rock the boat any more, and time is going by too quickly for me. I'm getting on with my life.
I guess I'm saying that I don't want to hear any more about how much you think about me and how much you love me, unless you can show me the evidence of it. And I'm not feeling in the slightest angry, just rather sad that I'm fast approaching the point of becoming bored with the same old routine.
There was a point when I really believed you loved me, but I don't think you do any more. Probably not for some time. Anyway, I miss the times we used to spend together, both in real life and online, but those times are so rare now. Maybe the time has just passed.
Take care
love Ginny xxxx
When you phoned me just before Christmas, wanting me to come down to Heathrow, I said that I needed something more from you before I could do anything crazy like that again. So you drove up to me. Although it was good to see you, that wasn't really what I meant. I meant I needed to see a change to the pattern of things to help me feel it would be worthwhile opening myself up all over again. If you'd have kept to your word about getting a laptop & communicating more regularly to see "how things go", it would have been a step forward. But it's all just the same thing routine, isn't it? I mean, last week you sent that email suggesting you ring to arrange to come round and I've still heard nothing again.
So we're now in March and we've passed my deadline of seeing how things go. I know you mean everything you say at the time (well I think you do, anyway), but what is the point in saying it if nothing transpires? As the man says " What we think, or what we know, or what we believe is, in the end, of little consequence. The only consequence is what we do." You're clearly comfortable enough in your life not to want to rock the boat any more, and time is going by too quickly for me. I'm getting on with my life.
I guess I'm saying that I don't want to hear any more about how much you think about me and how much you love me, unless you can show me the evidence of it. And I'm not feeling in the slightest angry, just rather sad that I'm fast approaching the point of becoming bored with the same old routine.
There was a point when I really believed you loved me, but I don't think you do any more. Probably not for some time. Anyway, I miss the times we used to spend together, both in real life and online, but those times are so rare now. Maybe the time has just passed.
Take care
love Ginny xxxx
posted by Mine is a Gin at 12:14 am
5 Comments:
Just a quick e-mail to thank you for taking the time to comment on my blog. I've been taking a look around yours and have been enjoying it. I'll be back again :)
I understand where you're coming from here, Ginny, and personally I think you're right. The trouble is, I suppose that everyone has their own view about what love means, and those views aren't necessarily going to sit side by side very happily.
I like that quote, incidentally - who's it by?
Hi Ginny.
Men often react spontaneously to a request to help as though that was what was being asked, whereas we women would rather have signs of a more secure, long term commitment, it seems. Fundamental sex differences again. For most guys I've been with, proactive help with needs that glaringly need to be met resolves problems permanently. (It's like throwing a ball to a dog. Spontenaety is all). Trouble is, it doesn't. We women need to keep our no claims bonus. :-)
I think you put it really well x
Kim - thanks for popping in. I'll look forward to seeing you again.
Wdky - sometimes I wonder whether it is possible to really be in synch. But then maybe that's part of the magic when it does happen!
Oh, and the quote's by John Ruskin
Fjl - thanks & I know what you mean
Marcus - Shakespear hasn't something for every occasion, don't you think?
Love that poem Marcus, my sentiments exactly, as anyone here will tell you- though these were perhaps never best defined by a 'hey nonny nonny'.
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